For your glory Jesus!!! More of you less of me!!!
Good morning beautiful loves!!! I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend. Ok so if you follow me on Facebook you all know that I have been talking about rejection. One post stated “maybe you are being rejected for a reason” while another post read “that rejection will work out in your favor.” Awe man rejection is like at the top of the list of emotions that nobody wants to feel! Getting rejected will make you do some crazy things! Am I right?! Wow I have so many stories I could tell on this one it’s hard to pick one. In my last blog post I talked about how my husband left me. Not only did he leave he took our son with him and refused to allow me to see him. That is unless I was willing to “quid pro quo” with him and although he was still my husband at the time I would sumbit to his request out of desperation. I felt so belittled, degraded, so unworthy of being loved, dismissed as inadequate otherwise known as rejected. Like I stated before I have so many stories to tell you all about me being rejected. I’m not going to give my exhusband all the credit on this one though. My last child’s father is another person who contributed to “Shayes pool of rejection.” A part of me can now smile as I write that quote because I know in the end what it did for me! I’m jumping the gun…..back to what I was saying. I have 5 kids total. My daughter is (for now) my last child and my ONLY girl!! I was happy and I felt everyone else should have been happy with me. Especially her Father!! He knew my situation and knew that I wanted a girl. As soon as I told him I was pregnant he immediately express how much he didn’t want anymore kids and so on. That of course left me feeling rejected and infuriated because he was also rejecting our child!! So being pregnant you all already know my emotions were all over the place. So all those feelings bunched into one only spells out t-r-o-u-b-l-e and that’s exactly what I caused him! Just like my exhusband he too went and got a protective order on me!! (as I’m writting this I’m laughing to myself because I’m like what’s up with these men getting protective orders on me I know I wasn’t THAT bad) But looking back I was. Like I said rejection can cause you to do some crazy things!! It can sometimes be so out of control that at the time YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT YOUR DOING…..until it’s to late. Hurting people hurt people! Here is my point…..Proverbs 3:5 talks about how we should NOT lean to our own understanding. When we are going through the process of life we don’t understand why. Why us? But WHY NOT YOU?! Yes, being rejected hurts like hell but if we never experienced it how would we really feel to feel WANTED!! Don’t allow that rejection to turn you bitter or make you give up on love or yourself! It’s not a setback but a SETUP that will all work out in your favor at the end. You can’t allow the enemy to come in and take over your mind and heart. If you do that’s when you start doing the crazy things!! What you need to say in your heart is that “Lord, I don’t understand why right now but I trust and know that YOU got this whole situation. Reveal to me exactly the life lesson you want me to learn from this so that I don’t be foolish and continue to repeat the same things over and over again.” YES LORD!!! He got you baby love! Even when you feel you don’t have one person in your corner…KNOW that God is right there with you. If ever you need an encouraging word…..please don’t hesitate to DM me on Facebook. It won’t be long until my official website is up and running. At that time I will have a few lines of communication set up for us. I love you all…… we will talk again soon!!!